Things are not going the way they should... Yesterday, I went to the airport to pick up a friend that was coming back from Turkey. I brought her there last week, and said I would come back and show her the town before she was leaving by train to her place. I already told some things about this girl. She's really nice and she's a good friend, but the problem is that she's in love with me (one more... :) and of course it's not reciprocal. I picked her up, and we went to the zoo (probably the best place to make a girl yours, with all the "cute" animals, the monkey babies, etc. so definitely not the place I should have gone to). She was so excited, and she was totally out of control... she was looking at the animals, and then coming around me and taking me in her arms, looking at my face, at my lips and I was totally uncomfortable because I had no idea how to handle that... she didn't try anything though, and it went ok. We went to eat someting at the flat, and I told her we were going to the skybar (the one on top of a tower where I met the swimmer).
My flatmates were supposed to join, and I thought it was perfect so she would calm down a bit and stay innofensive. The polish girl said she would join with Tyler as soon as he would get back from work. We went to the bar, only her and I, and I sent a text to Tyler to say that we would be waiting for them. After a while, he texted back that he was stuck at work and wouln't come. I was a bit annoyed... We were siting in this wonderful bar, looking at the city lights, and they were playing very good jazz music and bossa nova, it was probably the most romantic place to be... definitely a really bad idea. She was sitting besides me, coming closer and closer, making an approach, and I went up and said I would buy some beers. We drank a bit too much, and were talking of things I should never have told her, and once again she used my Achille's heel: alcool. As soon as I pass a limit, I continue to drink without noticing it. I really have had, and still have issues with that. So, she kept ordering drinks, I kept drinking, and talking (I can't stop when I'm drunk) and after a moment I noticed it was already midnight and that it was no more trains! Evil girl, I'm sure it was part of her plan!
We went back to my place, and I said she could sleep on the air-matress I have here, and tried to blow it up, but I couldn't (it takes at least 30 min) and she said she could sleep in my bed. I said it was ok but that I really needed some rest because I had to wake up early in the morning. We were in the bed, and I was almost asleep, and she was still so I thought that was going to be ok, but at that moment, she began to put her hand everywher, to caress me, and eventually tried to kiss me. I pushed her away, gently, and said I wouldn't do anything with her. She was angry and began to hit me, saying that I was a jerk. I tried to calm her down (we were totally inhebriated, so it was not easy) and after a moment we fell asleep. We woke up this morning with a giant hangover, and my breakfast was composed essentially of medication. I went to take a shower, and check when it was a train for her, and said to her that I had to go to my lesson. I took her suitcase and put it and her in the tram direction railway-station. We huged and she said I was mean with her. I said I just wanted us to be friends and that I was sorry if it was a misunderstanding. She left and I went to the lesson where I slept for two hours. It's a wasted day...
4 comments:
Awww, it's kind of cute that she's in love with you. Sucks about the non-reciprocity thing, and the massive hangover. :(
I'd say I feel sorry for you, but really I feel like you got what you deserved. Bad Charlie!
It's ok, I still like you man. :)
As I read this post and the other one you linked to, you never told her that you weren't interested until you put her in the tram.
At the very latest, you should have told her that you weren't romantically interested in her when you were at the zoo and she was taking you in her arms. That was when you should have told her that you wanted her to be a friend, nothing more.
It's not easy. You don't want to hurt her feelings. But the longer you wait, the longer she thinks you might be interested. We have a phrase in English "leading her on" which means letting her think you might be interested when you aren't.
I hope what you told her when you put her on the tram has made it clear to her. But if she still seems to have hopes for you (like visiting again), I think you should tell her as directly as you can that you will not fall in love with her, so she is wasting her time if that is what she is hoping for.
Yes I know, I should tell her quite frankly, but I don't want to hurt her. When we were at the zoo I just remained as "cold" as possible. The problem also is that when I'm with her we are most of the time totally drunk, and that's not the best conditions to think... but I know it's my fault, for the biggest part at least.
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