Presents

Did you get some nice presents? I did! :) First, I got a lot of money, wich is always welcome to pay the university taxes and the insurances at the begining of the year... :/ Hope there is still some left for a good meal! I also got a pair of white Lacoste shoes from the sister, I love them! Also got a cooking book from my father, there are hundreds of recipes, I'm not sure that I'll get thinner next year :P

I was at my grandmothers on the 24th, and had the biggest and best meal ever with the family on my mother side. We had lots of different traditionnal swedish food, with beer, aquavit, and all of that in a good mood, it was awesome! We ate so much... and I had to eat once more the day after at my fathers. He always prepares a lot of food. We were six around the table, him and his wife, the girlfriend of my late grandfather, my sister, and a Malasian friend of my father who was alone for christmas. I'm not sure that he liked the food, for it was nothing like asian food, but he seemed well glad to be there :) My sister and I offered a vintage radio-receiver to my father, it's from 1951 and I got it from a collector. He loved it and played with it like a child for the whole afternoon. Good idea to give it after the meal lol!

I wrote to Guillermo to say merry christmas. He said he was sick, and I wrote a nice message telling him to stay under the blankets and that I hoped that he would get better soon, and asked if he wanted to meet before I go to Italy, and all I got in return was "thanks". Yesterday he wrote "merry christmas" and I answered with another nice text, and I got nothing in return... Well, I think that I know what it means, I'm getting used to it... :/ I don't know what I do so that they run away like that... Bah, I'll come back with an Italian ;)

I'm heading to the seaside on Tuesday! I love Italy, looking forward to eat good food! Some friends of my parents have a small appartment on the seaside in a small village, it's quiet during the winter, and there is some nice walks to do. I'm going with Maria. No doubt that we're gonna have fun!

Bye bye, and happy new year, be careful with the drinks! See you next year!

Luge

The snow arrived this weekend, and has already gone. We had heavy snowfalls during the weekend, enough to disturb the normal life of the city. There is something magic when the busy town and the hurried people are suddenly frozen, everything gets calm, there is almost no cars anymore on the streets, no noises, but the snow falling and absorbing the sounds of the city. On sunday morning, when I woke up (I should say we, but this is coming a little bit later), everything was white, covered with fresh snow, and this is something you don't get to see every year as when I was younger. I called my sister, and we took the train to go over Montreux, in a small station called Les Avants. We were used to spend a week there during the winter with my parents, and go to luge or walk around in the snow. It's a very beautiful place. Hemingway spent some time there in the twenties and wrote about it, but I don't remember in wich book...

We took our luges, and had a wonderful time going up and down the luge-track. It had been a while that I hadn't spent time like that with my sister, and it was really cool :) We ended the day drinking a hot swiss chocolate in a warm restaurant, looking peacefully at the mountains. I never understand why some people have a TV when they can look at such beautiful landscapes instead...

So... back a bit earlier in the week, I met Stan wednesday evening. He came to eat at home. We had some mushrooms rolled in bacon for the apero, the fish I gave you the receipe as a starter, veal meat slices with a Marsala sauce as a main course, and home made vanilla ice cream for the dessert. It was quite enjoyable I think :P What surprised me is that I thought that I had made way to much food, but he ate it all! He said that he was missing good food so much in the UK that he took everything he could while staying here. Yep... I can understand, I spent some time in the UK when I was fifteen, and I must say that food is not really what they do the best... :S

It was really cool to see him. He let his beard grow a little, just a few days, and he looked so sexy like that... I can't help it, I'm in love with him... If only he was a bit curious... We spoke a lot toghether, and had a lot of fun, as usual. The only thing that makes me feel a bit uncomfortable when I am with him, paradoxically, is that he feels totally confortable with me. While looking at some pictures on my computer, he had his mouth like ten centimeters from mine, and I just had to restrain so hard not to try to kiss him :/ I would prefer, in a way, that we would have just a bit more distance sometimes. It wouldn't be so tempting for me...

On Saturday, Guillermo came at my place, and he cooked for me. It was really good. Nothing really special, but good anyway. He had to change the receipe, because he wanted to do some chicken with a basil sauce, but instead of buying basil, he bought sorrel leaves, wich is not quite the same thing... He made a curry chicken instead, and it was really good.

While he was washing the dishes after the meal, I came behind him, and started to kiss and gently bite his earlobe. No need to say that he never finished the washing up :P We mooved to the sofa and gently made out for a long time. He's a really good kisser. It was so sweet, but also so exciting... We made a little break to eat the dessert, and then jumped in my bed for the rest of the night. He really knows how to use his mouth :P You can feel that he has a lot of experience in the domain! Sex with him was awesome...

We spent a lot of time speaking on the morning when we woke up. He wanted us to go jogging outside when we went out of bed... I was like no way! :) Sunday is a sacred day, even for a non believer like me! He went to do his jogging, and then left, and I went to take the train with my sister.

He's cool, although he has all his issues, that could be a bit anoying. But I also have mine, so I think that if he can bear me, I can deal with it :) We'll see how it goes. I'm not expecting anything, it's the third time we meet, "romantically" speaking, and I'm waiting to see if I broke the "pattern" I've been with the previous guys, or if it will be the same. This time, I didn't made any plans, didn't do or say anything to scare him (I hope) and waited for him to take some initiative, I didn't pushed anything, so I hope that things will continue like that a little bit longer. We are supposed to meet this week, so we'll see.

Christmas time with the family is approaching, I'm looking forward of all the good humor and good food! :P I wish you all a wonderful Christmas time with your family and friends!

Questions

Guillermo came here yesterday after work. We spent a few hours together and it was really cool. Lot of it was spent kissing and talking, and the rest doing other things... but nothing too serious ;) He's unsure about pretty much everything, so it's difficult because he has issues and is questionning everything, like when I asked him if he wanted to come over he was "I'd like to but I'm not sure, I'm wondering, what about it would ruin something between us if we go further? not sure were we are going" and I told him that I had no idea either, but if we don't try we will never know... I told him to chill out and take his time. I mean, we're not in a hurry, and it's great just to be with him and chill out in the sofa. I don't know why he's asking himself so many questions that have no answer. If it's gonna go somewhere, then great, if not, well, that's life, even if it has some consequences... But obviously, at this point, either we stop, go a step back and decide to stay friends, or we go further, but we can't stop right where we are now...

He's coming saturday and is going to cook here for me, I'm looking forward :) I think that I will surprise him and buy some oysters, that he likes very much (and so do I). I hope that I wont cut myself like I did last time :/ it's really hard to open them!

Tommorow, Stan is coming back to Switzerland! :) He's gonna be at my place at 6pm for dinner, he's gonna have the meal of his life ;) I'm so excited to see him!

A meal and a kiss

Hehe, good work with Guillermo ;) He came at my place for a nice dinner. I thought that he was going to spend the night here, but he announced at his arrival that he had to leave around 10 pm to pick up his mother :/

We had a great meal and conversation, he told me a lot about himself. He had a lot of issues when he was a kid, because he was fat and gay, and it didn't help in a small village... He still seems to have a lot of issues with his body image, although he is now well fit.

We talked a lot around the table, and then we moved to the sofa for the digestive. He was still speaking, and I stopped him, and told him that I hoped that he had understood that if I had invited him this night it was not just because I liked him as a friend. He smiled, and told me that he liked very much the way all that was happening. It was time for him to leave, but I didn't want to let him go without a kiss. We shared a long sweet kiss before he left. :) I'm looking forward to see what will follow!

Fish

This is a receipt from my father (best cook of the world) that I tested myself tonight. It's certainly the best fish receipt ever, and the simplest one. I very seldom eat fish because it is soooo expensive in Switzerland, but tonight I got some from my father :) It's coming from the sri-lanka, but I'm not even feeling guilty for all the CO2, viva Copenhagen! :P

- A big piece of marlin, cut in a steaks approximately one centimeter thick

- Curcuma (mix of spices, don't ask my what's inside...)

- some shallot, cut in the thinnest slices possible

- a few pistachios (or pistachi??)

- Lime juice

- a very fine olive oil

- chive

Take the marlin-steaks. Spinkle a bit of curcuma on it for the color and taste. Put it on an slightly oiled grill pan (a pan with some "waves" that make lines on the steaks as if you had put it on a grill), at high temperature, two minutes on each side. Take out of the fire immediatly. Cut your steak in some slices. Put it on a serving plate. Put on it the shallot slices, the chive, the pistachios. Pour some lime juice on it, and then the olive oil, some salt and some pepper, and let it marinate in the fridge at least two hours.

Enjoy it, it is so good that I'm sure that I will wake up in the middle of the night to eat some :P Oh my god, I can't wait to eat it!

4 am

Ahah! He's gay! :) After his first answer, I get another one, around 4 am (!) saying "Just so you know, I'm the same as you. Discussion to be followed on our next meeting. Sweet dreams"

I start to love where this is going... :)

Guillermo

Mmm... I'm just back from the restaurant. Guillermo couldn't come yesterday because his competition ended late in the evening and it was in another city. We met today, and went to eat in one of my favourite restaurants. We had a nice meal, and it was a very enjoyable night, we talked without stopping during more than three hours, with a lot of funny moments. This is quite good. The part that I don't like is that I got really confused... He was dressed very well, like for a date, he smiled at me looking me in the eyes for the whole evening, and asked three times by different ways if I was a bachelor, and that made me think that he was interested, but on the same time, he told me about his ex girlfriend... it was quite confusing.

We asked for the bill, and he brought me back home by car, and he asked me another time "so, amongst all the nice ladies there is in your faculty, you never found the right one?" and I was like "mmm... no, I don't think there is a right lady for me..." expecting him to ask for more, but he stopped there. Just before going down from the car, he said "well, Charlie, I had a very good evening, I hope that we'll have meet very soon" and I said I had a very nice time too, and we looked each other for a moment, I didn't know what to do, I mean if he's not gay, I don't want to come a cropper... I just shook his hand and went out.

I wrote a text a few minutes ago, saying "Hi, I had a very nice time tonight. As you aked a few times already, I will tell you something. I'm not really into girls... I don't tell everyone, but I have the feeling that it won't bother you. Just so you know why I don't talk that much about my love life. Anyways, I'm not any worse at giving advices for the studies for this reason, it doesn't change anything :) I hope that it's not a problem for you. See you on tuesday, and have a good night." and I got the answer "It doesn't bother me at all. I had some doubts about it. I'm touched that you told me. I had a REALLY nice evening, and you are someone REALLY nice. Have a good night and see you on tuesday ^=^" hum... it doesn't really bring something new...

Rendez-vous

I'm seeing Guillermo in two hours. I've got to take a shower and get ready. He'll be back of a gym competition.

I found on the internet that he made a regional mister something competition, there is a short clip on a local tv site where you can see him presenting himself. At one moment he's dancing with his top off, not bad at all, I tell you :P

Diploma

I'm gonna get my diploma today! :) a part of the family is coming to the ceremony. I'm a bit disappointed because my father won't be there with his wife. I hope that he'll be there for the next one.

I start to be a bit exhausted, it's been two weeks that I hadn't have a real long night of sleep. Last weekend I was out all the nights and finished very early in the mornings... I went to Lucerne to show the city to some friends of mine, and then to Zürich to visit some friends and family. I think that I have never eaten as much in one weekend!

I also met Guilermo tuedsday. We were eating, and speaking, and he asked if I had a girlfriend. I said no, but didn't know how to say something for him to make sure that he knows that I'm gay. Anyway, we decided to have a drink on saturday night, and I guess that he understood that we're not going to talk about the law all the night long... He's a really sweet guy, and also quite good looking. He's doing some gym competitions, so I guess that there is some interesting material under his shirt ;)

I'll keep you in touch!

Work, gym, and the spanish

I've been quite busy these last days, wich is good, days go by very quickly, and I have no time to get bored. There is nothing to do there other than work or drink anyway... it is foggy 20 days a month, and the other days are grey and rainy, I really hate november.

As I told you, I found another job beside the work at the physical therapist. I work at the universitary hospital for a team of guys doing a research on intestinal diseases. Hum... now I know all about anal abcesses, bloody stool, and intestinal fistulas. How glamorous... But otherwise it's cool because there is no fix schedule, I can go there when I want and work for how much I want, it is very flexible. And my boss is a really cool young black girl, full of life, wich makes the work look much more funny than it actually is.

On an other topic, I finally got to see Alessandro naked (well, appart from his boxer), and wow... I thought that guys like that only existed on photoshoped pictures for underwear advertisement :P Oh my god, everything is perfect... the only thing is that he's totally shaved on the belly, and I find it sexier with a happy trail, but I could take him like that all the same :) He's my motivation to go to the gym three times a week. It had been a while since I last went, and I must say that I missed it very much, all these hot guys showing off... I love it. And now that there is Alessandro...

I also met a new guy, Guilermo. He's spanish. I'm supposed to be his "tutor" for this year. I took three "younger" students under my wings, in oder to help them to get acquainted with the academic world. All of them are begining there studies, but only one is younger in age. Guilermo is the same age as me. We met a few times, and we immediatly had a very good contact, we immediatly felt comfortable with each other. We are there to talk about the studies, but we always discuss other things, and have a good conversation. He's good looking, and has beautiful grey-brown eyes. I think that he's gay, I saw him talking with some other gay guys and kiss them on the cheek. So well, maybe we'll be a bit more than formal study mates, whatever will it be...

20 years ago

It was twenty years ago, and it is my first visual memory. I was three years old, we were looking at the tv, and I saw the Berliner wall fall on this day of November. I think that I didn't realise at that moment what it was, but I realised that it was really important, seing how happy all these people were crossing the boarder, and with how much anger they were destroying this shameful separation. It seems so incredible right now to think that when I was born, Europe was still cut in two parts...

Appart from that, I'm back from one month stuck in the library. We attented a law competition with three friends of mine, and me and Alessandro put all our heart and mind at work during the last month. We were a bit disapointed because the two other guys were not really in the same state of mind, and therefore the paper we gave back to the jury is far to be good enough to be among the twelwe best to go for the final... But we cross our fingers, and hope that there were even worse competitors than us!

I planned some travels for the winter. There are not many things that I hate more that this season, and I try to get as busy as I can, and I think that I can't get more busy than that. I'm working twice longer on the days to get some extra cash, and as soon as I can after Christmas, I will go to Italy with some friends. When I'll be back, I'll take a trip to Istanbul with crazy girl (I know I know...) and look forward to see this impressive city! It's been a dream of mine since we talked about it at school when studying the history of the roman empire. After that I'll have just a few days before my exams, and then will attend extra lessons on european laws. In between, I'll try to go up and visit some family in the Alps. I'm looking forward!

I hope that everyone else is allright :) I had no time to read other blogs...

See you guys!

Sans le jazz...

... la vie serait une erreur, said Boris Vian, and I couldn't agree with him more!

The jazz club where I'm used to spend the weekends reopened last week after the summer break. I went with some friends to listen to a concert, and it was awesome. They had never heard jazz before! what a shame! They enjoyed it, ant I hope that some of them are gonna come with me next time.

I'm going again tonight with Sarah, and a collegue from work. It turned out that he's a jazz fan too, and a collects old jazz vinyls. I guess his house is full of them, and that there is always a piece of Duke Ellington, Dave Brubeck or whoever else on the record deck.

Just for the plesure of the ears, a masterpiece of my favourite pianist, Erroll Garner:

Gay rights in Switzerland, and a specific matter

I had a very intersting day today. It was my fist session of legal assistance. There is a legal council in our university with master students, and we treat some cases submited by anyone from the university or from outside. The aim is to give a first legal opinion on any matter submited to us. It's very useful both for us and the people, for us because it provide us some real cases to treat, and for them because they can get some advice for free.

The first case today was very complicated, but so interesting! I can't say the details because we are subjected to confidentiality, but it was about gay rights in Switerland. I will just write some important points about the state of gay unions in Switzerland, wich could be interesting for some of you.

Switzerland has adopted a law allowing same sex unions with basically the same rights as marriage. Gay couples are treated almost equally compared to married people. The big remaining difference is that the gay couples are denied the right to adopt children. The gay unions are officially called "registered partnership" (how poetic...). Basically, this goes in the right direction, as the gays and lesbians have now the right to commit in a civil partnership according most of the rights accorded to married people.

There has been a lot of political efforts to bring birth to this law. Some states in Switzerland (wich is, as the USA, a federal country, with 26 states) are catholic, and very conservative politically speaking, and some others are very "open" and liberal, mostly the states where the biggest cities are located. All the laws voted by the parliement can be submitted to the people for a referendum, and can therefore be refused. The problem for the parliement was to edict a law that could be accepted by the people, and a compromise had to be made between the different political sensibilities. Allowing marriage to gay couple was out of option. Doing so seemed impossible, as the people, in the case of a referendum, would for sure have refused it, because it was going to far. But the necessity to allow rights to homosexual couples was obvious. This compromise was finally found, and submitted to the swiss people, wich accepted it with a "yes" rate of about 58% (if I remember well).

It is a good thing I think, because we avoided the debate about marriage, with all the traps linked to it, the conflicts with the traditionnal and religious conceptions.

The law is good, but there are a few bad points. Appart from the problem of child adoption, a big problem comes from the designation of the official civil status. Married people are "married" on the official papers, while, logically, gay couples are listed as "linked by a registered partnership".

Here lies one of the problem that we treated tonight: when you want to be hired, and go to a job interview, the future employer has the right to ask questions about your civil status, as it can be important for him because he may have to know it (in order to establish the official documents for the social insurrances for instance). Therefore, you have basically no choice but to make your coming out to your employer if you are linked by a registered partnership, whereas you wouldn't have to do it if you weren't officialy together, because the sexual orientation is considered to be part of the very private life. This is, according to me, beyond reasonnable, it is a discrimination against gay people. It can lead to a disadvantage, knowing that homosexuality is far to be accepted by everyone.

Any discrimination based on the sexual orientation is forbidden by our constitution, and it would be easy to point it out in front of a constitutionnal court, but the problem is that, in Switzerland, believe it or not, there is no constitutionnal court! The respect of the constitution is verified by the parliament when he does the laws. The constitutionnality of the federal laws cannot be examined by any court!

In our case, it means that the discrimination generated by this law (wich otherwise is a very good inovation), although not compatible with our constitution, cannot be eliminated by any other way than a political action, and a modification of the different laws involved, and there is no political intention of doing so.

So, tonight, we, little students, decided to search for a legal way to make that change. I'm full of enthusiasm for this first case (especially because I could also be concerned in a few years), but I know that the chances are not far from zero. There are however other important questions in this case, wich could be easier to answer.

Master

Hi guys!

I started the lessons last week, and discovered my new professors, courses, and mates. As I'm staying at the same university, I already know most of them, but I made a few new acquaintances. Alessandro still sits next to me as last year, and it's great to be with him at the lessons.

It's very interesting, because we are mixed with some people who are doing a master degree in penal prosecution, wich mixes law courses and forensic sciences, and we have very interesting discussions. I thought about doing this master myself, as I'm very interested in penal issues, but gave up the idea when Maria told me about some awful experiences she had had on crime scenes... The idea of being present during autopsies of heavily injured or rotten bodies discouraged me. But although I don't plan to be a prosecutor, I still keep the idea of being a penal lawyer.

I have no more news from Lucas, but after a few days, I don't care that much anymore. I was really down during two days, but then, I realised that I was sad to have lost an opportunity, and not really what I had. I mean, I was thinking about how it could be great to be with each other, but without knowing anything of him. It felt good to be with him, but as it would with any other cute guy. After all, I have no real experience of a relationship. And there has been so many "void" years before I accepted my homosexuality, that as soon as I have someone kissing me I think that I'm in love. I've been in love, but I've never lived it with someone who loves me in return, and maybe that's why I feel so urged to be in a relationship. But it doesn't happen like that. I slept with two guys, and it was wonderful to discover all these new feelings, but I don't know if we would have had anything to share, other than sex. I'd like to meet someone with whom I can share something. To start with the sex doesn't really seem to be the best solution... After that I felt bond, I felt as if something was necessarily going to come out of this, but it didn't. Well, I think that I have learnt that there is a difference between sex and love. I discovered the first with an immense satisfaction, and some bitter desappointements, and I hope now to find the second with a bit of luck.

I had a call from Stan on skype, and I was so happy to speak with him! He told be about his trip in Rio di Janeiro, and about his new stard in the UK. I'm maybe going to pay him a visit this winter. I had planned to do so in spring, but he said he didn't want to wait that long, and neither do I :) We talked about some very personnal stuff, and I'm so happy to have someone like him to talk with.

This autumn and winter will be busy. I decided to subscribe to a national oratorical competion for the law students with Alessandro, and it will need a lot of work. The first selection is in early November, and, if we are among the best, the final would be held in front of a federal court in februrary. It is a really big challenge, and I hope that we will be good enough to pass the first selection. In between, I'll go to visit Istanbul just after the new year, and before my exams. If I find a free slot, I'll pay a visit to Stan.

On another topic, I had my last three wisdom teeth removed yesterday. This time I went to a real surgeon in a private clinic. I saw the difference with the other one! It went quick and easy, with explanation and medication. But the price is... hum... astonishing... :/ Well, it's an investment, I learnt last time that when it's about health, you better have to put the price! It's good that I have some money here or there.

See you!

Charlie

What can you say when a love affair is over?

I got a mail from Lucas, and it's not great news... It wasn't really a surprise after last Friday. Well, he says he has a lot on his mind, he hadn't moved on from his last boyfriend, does not want any commitment now with all the work he has at the univerity, and blamed alcool for what happened between us. So, it's over... I felt really bad yesterday, when I received it, I felt sad and angry. Sad because even if I didn't know what would happen between us, I was feeling good with him. Angry because I don't understand how it can go from "you're the nicest guy ever, I feel so good when I'm with you, I want to see you again" to that in just a few days. Maybe I gave the impression to want too much too fast, but when a guy says such things, how would you react? Play like you're not interested? I don't know... I don't know what and if I did something wrong. I wish I could learn something from that but I dont know what. Maybe to be less enthusiastic, more careful. I'm sad that he didn't decide to give a try, without thinking too much about what would happen.

It'll take me a few days to recover I guess...

Smoke on the water

This was a horrible day. It's one of these days when I'm horribly angry and just want to scream and destroy something. This all started yesterday I guess. I had planed to go have a walk with Lucas. I wanted to a place called Caux, over Montreux, and wher there is an astonishing view on the lake and the Alps. I thought that it would be a nice wather, and that we could have a walk, lie down somewhere in the grass under a blue sky, and have a nice time. This is how it looks by nice weather:

Wonderful isn't it? It was supposed to be, but instead, arriving on top, we found ourselves stuck in the fog, and it looked quite depressing. Moreover, everything was wet, and instead of the great romantic promenade I had planned, it was more like a fight to make a step in the mud without slipping. Great... So, no lying down in the grass. After a long walk in the forest, wich, with the fog, looked totally like one of a horror movie, I finally found a more a less dry bench, with the view on... nothing. Well, I asked if he wanted to sit for a moment (I didn't really need to sit, I just wanted to have a quiet place to kiss and talk, and was hoping he would understand) and he said "Are you tired? I don't really want to sit here, there is nothing to see" I insisted that we would sit, and we started to talk. He was looking at some ants on the ground, and I was wondering how he could think of anything else than looking at me and kiss me. He was going on speaking, and I came closer, put my arm around his shoulder, and he was still looking at the ants and speaking. I started to rub is back, very smoothly, and then caress his neck hair. Nothing more. I started to kiss him on the neck, and expected him to turn his head and kiss me. No reaction. I got so confused... how could he be so unreactive after the weekend we had had? He just put his head on my shoulder for a minute, and then four peoples on bikes arrived out of nowhere, and he woke up and proposed to go to look at the village down the path. I was so frustrated and confused...

We went down to the village, this event really killed my enthusiasm. We spoke of insignificant things like how nice was this chalet or that, and I really felt bad, a mix of disappointement, frustration, and other mixed feelings. We took the train down to Montreux, and when we arrived at the station, I asked if we could meet again at my place this week, and he said "yeah, we'll see, I have a lot to do this week you know" and this totally killed me. I went home, so confused, and didn't know what to do. I didn't do anything, and this morning just wrote a nice text, and got no answer. So, this drove me mad the whole day. I was also going to see Stan, who came back from Brazil, and is going for one year in the UK, so this was my last chance to see him before long, and he called to say he had no time. You can imagine in what state I began my evening... Luckily, a good friend called, and we went to have a drink in a bar, and now I feel a little bit better, but I'm still wondering what happened with Lucas, and hope that it is only a misunderstanding or something... :/

When I can't control my feelings, it really drives me totally mad...

Beautiful Switzerland

I'm just back from a dinner with Maria. We went a place well known for the beautiful view on the lake, and the restaurant's cheese fondue. Hum... not my favourite plate at all, I hate cheese, but I knew there was other things to eat. I love this place, I was used to go with my grand-father and I have a lot of good memories. This is also why I love it:

I love where I live so much! I hope that I will never have to move to another place in my life. Yesterday I had a little training flight, I wanted to go to land on another airport, but I had some trouble with the radio, and you're not allowed to land if you can't have any contact with the air traffic controler, so I made a little local flight and went back. The weather was absolutely perfect, and it was awesome! See by yourself:

On the very right of the last picture is one of the biggest chocolate factory of Switzerland :P

Oh, and by the way, I received the results of my exams, and I did good :) Great!

Discovery

Nothing to do with the space shuttle mission here, but about new things I learned with Lucas (the doctor). Don't read it if you don't want to know what happened in my bed this weekend...

I told you that I had reached a new height in pleasure, that's the story with some details :) So, Lucas came here, and we ate, and then went to the living room, where we started to kiss tenderly and speak of some things, in order to know each other a bit better. It was really sweet, but also horny. I was rock hard from the first kiss and was gently wetting my pants with precum... after a little hour of sweet kisses, things started to get a bit hotter. I put my hand in Lucas's pants, and noticed that he was as excited as I was, and his pants as wet as mine. I started to rub his dick, and he did the same. I stood up, and took him by the hand to the bedroom. We felt on the bed, and started a passionnate make out session. He started to unbutton my shirt and ran his hands and tongue on my chest, while I was caressing his back and malaxing his butt cheeks. I threw my shirt away, and removed his t-shirt. We made out like that for a few minutes, after what whe took of our jeans and boxers. I took both our cocks in my hand, and started to jerk us off, rubbing my dick against his, lubrificated by our precum. It was already quite hot as you can imagine :P He very sooned started to ask for more, and we sixty-nined for a while. He started to run a finger between my cheeks, and started to tease my butt hole, and soon put his finger in it, and that excited me even more if that is possible. After a few awsome minutes, we started to kiss again, and I asked if he had any idea of what to do next, he put a finger in my hole, made a kinky smile, and said "mmm... don't know... what about you?" and I said I thought we had the same idea.

I went to take a condom, some lube, and proposed him to go first. I put the condom on his dick, lubed it, lubed my hole, and went to sit on him. With him it went very easy. I was just a little tense at first, but we kissed and I relaxed. His dick slid genlty into my hole, until the very last inch. It was much more confortable than with Erik, most probably because Lucas is much nicer and careful than him. We started to moove, gently, and then harded, varying the position, and it was so exciting... omg... I was not far to cum without even touching myself! after a moment, he started to shake, and said he couldn't held no more, and shortly after he came inside me. I went to throw the condom away, and came back, and he sucked me until I came.

We spooned for a moment, and very soon I was rock hard again. We started to make out again, and I started to tease his hole. I asked if he wanted to do it, and said yes. I took another condom, lubed my dick, his hole, and started to finger him. I was a bit nervous because it was the first time I was the top. Erik was much too nervous and I could never penetrate him. I was very excited, but nervous, and not totally hard. But Lucas arranged that for me. I finally entered his hole, and started to discover a hole new world :P It was not at all what I expected. I thought that it would be really warm and very sensitive and sweet, and I don't know if it was because of the condom, but it felt more like a vague sensation of pression around my dick. Very agreable though :) At first, he was on his back, and I was on top. I took him and balanced us to that he went on top of me, riding my cock. It was more intense. He was going up and down and I started to feel that I was going to cum, but couldn't reach the very last moment. I balanced again, went on top, and started to fuck him faster. He was jerking him off, and came all over his chest. At that moment I went much slower, and it is where I came. I was going very slow, and I felt the pleasure coming, I started to shake, like when you have a lot of fever, my arms went weak, I couldn't breathe anymore, and I came... oh my god... I never felt anything like that... I almost fainted...

I collapsed on him, still inside him, my cock having some last spasms, and we stayed like that for a minute. I took my cock out and he went to take a shower.

We spend ther rest of the night in each other arms, and it was so good. I woke up around 10, and went to buy some croissants for breakfast. I came back, undressed again, and went back to the bed, and woke him up by kissing him. He was rock hard, and so was I, and we fucked another time before going to take a shower and have breakfast.

It was probably the best weekend of my life :)

So Aek, enough details? ;)

:)

I had my last exam this Thursday, I'm so glad that it's over! Now I have a week free before starting the last step at the university. I invited the doctor at home to celebrate. I prepared a good italian meal: Saltimbocca alla romana (it's a veal escalope prepared with a sage leaf and a prosciutto slice, with a white wine and lemon sauce, yummy!) and Panna cotta for the dessert.

We had a wonderful time together. He's really fun and laid-back, I like that :) It's so good to have someone to be with. He's doing all what I dreamed of without even asking. I also reached a whole new level in pleasure during this night... oh my god :P

If the weather allows it I'm taking him for a little plane ride at the end of the week. I know a little airport in the middle of the alps where you can rent bikes and cyle around, it could be great.

Great end for the vacation :)

Birthday party

The first two exams are done, and it went well I think. Two left and then I'll have 10 days to relax, and wait for my results. I'm also waiting for an answer of a Professor, I applied to be his assistant. It would be great to work in my future professionnal domain, instead of getting a job here or there that doesn't bring me anything useful for my career. Cross your fingers!

There is also something else... :P Stop here if you don't want to read explicit details...

Well, I went to a birthday party yesterday. There was this guy, one of the medicine students that I had already met before. I knew from a girl that he found me really hot, and we had exchanged a few emails before the party. He arrived one hour later than me, and I was discussig with another guy, and he just said "hi" and went in another room. I cut short the other conversation, and went to talk with him and another french guy. They where speaking together, and I tried to come in the conversation, but they were not really interacting with me, so I went to get a beer, and talked to a girl. She has the most beautiful eyes ever, and told her so, because I couldn't take my eyes out of hers. That may have resulted in an interest from her part, and she started to dance with me, but I said I was an awful dancer, and that she could dance with someone else and that I would go and have a beer on the terrace. So did I, and after a few minutes, the two guys went out, and started to talk with me, and the girl arrived also, still wanting to dance, and I was staying like a piece of marble, so the girl began to press her body against mine, and started a... hum... very sensual dance... and then one of the guys came behind, and started the same on the other side, I was pressed like in a sandwich, and I was not really at ease... I know many that would dream of such a situation though, lol!

Then she went to get something to drink, and the two guys where staring at me, asking some personnal questions, and they started to make a lot of compliments, and to touch me, and I felt a bit weird, it was like being stuck in a corner like a prey, and they were really turned on... the french guy asked "How is it to be desired by everyone?" and I was like "hum... well, it's agreable, it is very flattering" and he wanted to know wich one of the two guys I was preferring. I didn't know what to answer, even if I knew that I preferred the doctor. The french guy went to get his cigarettes, and we were left alone with the doctor. He asked if he could kiss me, and I didn't refuse. We made out for like one hour on the terrace. I invited him to come to spend the night at my place, and it took us 20 minutes to come home by feet.

We made out in the lift, and he wanted to stop it... but you can hear anything, so I refused (and I was stuck once there, and had to call the firemen, I didn't want to spend my night in there). I showed him the flat, and he like jumped on me in the kitchen. Everything was falling down the table like in a movie, it was quite hot as you can imagine :P We started to undress, and went to the bed, where we started to suck each other. One after another first, and then we did a 69, it was hot as hell! I came and shooted like ten times or more on my stomach, chest, and even on my face and the wall behind... It's a good thing that I decided to repaint it in a few weeks lol... When it was over, he licked all the cum, and after that, started to lick my face, playing with the cum. On a way it was hot, but on the other hand, it was kind of gross, and I went to wash my face, because it was a sticky mess...

I finished him by jerking him off, because he wasn't coming and my jaw were a bit sore... he has a large dick, and it's kind of tiring... After that we spooned for the rest of the night, and that was really sweet.

I woke him up with a blowjob this morning, and I guess that he appreciated it. How wouldn't? :) He left an hour ago, because he had a family dinner. I asked if we were going to meet again, I said yes. He's hot, and really nice, but I still don't think that we would go well with each other. But I can give it a try, who knows...

First exam

First exam tomorrow... as usual I can't sleep, so I'm using the usual medication: bourbon on the rocks and jazz music. Enough to fall asleep without thinking on all the stuff, and not to much in order to be able to speak in front of the experts. Cross your fingers, 7:00 UTC!

Naked chef

Pfff... it's so hot here! I've been all the day long in my boxers but it was still too hot. I remembered that cooking half naked can be a bit dangerous... :/ but i might have realised the fantasy of the old lady living on the other side of the street :)

I'm studying hard, but I'm so bored about it... I'm looking forward to see the end of the exams! It should be ok, because I will have enough time to re-read the important things before going.

I have to "hide" a bit from my friends because some of them are in bad mood, and as egoistical as it is, I can't afford to take time to see them. It's not really kind of me, but I'm there all the year long, I think that they will survive without me if I disapear for two weeks. Crazy girl might go back to Turkey at the end of the summer, because she failed her exams here, and wanted to enter another university, but her admission was refused, and it's a condition to renew her permit to stay in Switzerland. I hope that she can stay though, because I really like her.

Today I got an email on facebook from a guy I met in a party. I was told that he really liked me. I didn't really like him when we met. He's a very hansome guy, and seem nice, but I didn't had a good impression. I don't think that we could get on very well, but it's a bit stupid to say no before giving a try, so I keep him at my disposal for after the exams. You never know... :)

Lost at sea

I am inconsolable... my ray-bans jumped from my shirts pocket and fell into the lake, and despite my desperate efforts to look for them yesterday night and this morning, I couldn't find them :(

Random

I hate the weeks before the exams, it really sucks. I stay at home because I know that I have to work, but I don't work as much as I would like, and instead of working hard just a few hours and then go out with my friends, I procrastinate the most part of the day. I'm still working enough to be ready on time I think, I always take a good margin because I know myself well LOL

I don't need to cook that much, because everyone is worrying about me and think that I don't eat enough because I work a lot, but it couldn't be farther from the truth :) The turkish friends supports me and I get a ton of awesome food, and my mother supply some delicious vegetables from the market. Since I came back from Sweden, I had to go shopping only once!

Alessandro is coming here this weekend to explain me some things about the tax law (how exciting! lol) so I went to have my hair cut. I don't want to look like a survivor when he comes :P It will be cool to meet again.

The crazy girl came back, and I think that she's getting used to the idea, although she talks about sex all the time and ask me to go skinny-dipping... I guess that she just miss her boyfriend... I met her mother, and she said that I "had" to some to Istanbul during the winter. I will if I can spare enough money, because in the first place I want to fly to San-Francisco next summer with my sister, and it costs a lot.

I found another inanimate guy on the street today, and it turned out that he was only too drunk and fell asleep in the street. He was well distressed and I stayed to talk with him for half an hour. I felt sorry for him, he really had a shitty life, and now he's drinking all the time. I hope that it just cheered him up a little bit to talk to someone for a few minutes.

That was a random post...

Hej!

Hi guys!

I had a wonderful time up there in the north. I started my trip in Copenhagen, the capital of Denmark. I had booked a bed in a youth hostel, in the hope to make some acquantances there because I was by myself. I did, there was some decent guys in my room with whom I could hang out on the evenings. I met a californian teacher, a student in architecture from Malaysia, and three belgium beer drinkers.

Colourful Copenhagen

Nyhavn, one of the most touristic spot in the city. I had the most expensive beer ever there! Almost 12$ for half a liter!!!

Copenhagen after the rain

I visited the city on daytime, and went out with them at night. There was a lot to to and I only had three days, I couldn't do all that I wanted, but almost. I also took the train to see the Louisiana museum, a modern art museum facing the sea. I enjoyed it very much. Thanks to one of my readers that gave me the advice ;)

The Calder garden in Louisiana, with a nice view on the Øresund. The land on the second plan is Sweden.

The night before leaving, I went to see the opening ceremony of the "world out games", the gay olympiads. It was really short, not so fun, and under the rain... but there was a lot of fit guys, and I got a lot of indecent propositions... I was pretty much tempted, but I was with this malaysian guy and didn't know how to drop him, it wouldn't have been very nice. I didn't take any pictures, but I can tell you that there are so many hotties up there, oh my god, I want to live in the north! I love the blond guys and there were so many of them... I was as excited as a Jack Russel in a sausage factory!

I woke up early the day after, and left for Sweden. I took the train until Helsingør, and took the ferry-boat to cross and reach Helsinborg on the Swedish side. It's only a few kilometers.

Elsenor Castle, where Hamlet's plot took place

I took another train and then a bus to reach the small seaside village where some cousins where waiting for me. I was used to go there in the summer when I was a child, and the last time I went was when I was 14. But I was surprised to see that nothing had changed, appart from my cousins (one girl, 20yo, and one boy, 15yo, typical swedish, blond with blue eyes, fit, with a good temper and an adorable smile). I was nice to see them again!

There is nothing to do in the village, appart from going to the sea and have a swim, or walk along the coast. After my arrival, I went to have a walk by the sea, and so many things were coming back from my souvenirs. There is the special smell of the sea, the wind, the beautiful lanscape, it activated my memory and made me remember all the good times I had had there during my childhood, when we were going there with all the family before my parents divorced. I made me feel nostalgic for a moment.

Promenade path on the coast

The very special light that so many painters loved, many choosed to spend some time in Skagen, not far from there, to paint.

Typical wild landscape of the south of Sweden

A picturesque seaside resort, very popular in the begining of last century, with the "Grand hotel" on top.

The way to the beach

Perfect scenery to chill out and think during my evening promenades

My cousins were really sweet and they brought me in very nice places, we made some excursions on some islands around, or to other places of interest. I went to sail with them and their father.

Kullaberg's lighthouse, and just under a cargo, going from the Baltic sea to the North sea

Well, it was really a wonderful time. And we ate so well, it was awesome. I asked if we could eat a lot of fish, because it is so good there. We ate a lot of smoked fishes from the region, mackerels, herrings, and fresh lobster, soles... :P so good!

Special ice cream for August 1st, the swiss national day

On the last night, I went with my cousin (the girl) to visit a friend of her in another village. We went by bicycle, drove like an hour. Their parents had a so nice house... it's all new, designed by a swedish architect, and all the furniture is from a danish designer. I think that it must have costed a huge amount of money. But the result was so wonderful. I want a house like that, I'll take the same architect! :) The house was just beside the beach, and we took a good bottle of wine and had a drink on the sand, looking at the shooting stars. I saw five of them, and made some wishes. I was getting late, and I said we would have to come back, and the friend proposed that we would sleep altogheter in the same bed and have fun... hum... considering that we are cousins, we declined the offer and drove home.

I took the plane back yesterday, and now I have to work hard for my exams, 20 days left! :S

I'm definitely going back there soon!!