Erik

Hi! I went home again this weekend finally, as things didn't turn up as I had expected... I was supposed to go at Eriks, at least to have a talk, because I'm swimming in the fog... I don't know what he wants, and I'd like to know if he wants us to be together, to stop to meet, to meet as friends, because it's unclear and I hate not to know what's going on. We texted during the week, and he basically complained about his work, and that was all. He said we "would talk about weekend later" so I said that I was free either on friday or saturday. I waited during all the day on friday, waited all the evening, and finally, around midnight texted him to know if he wanted us to meet on saturday. No answer, so I waited at home saturday, some friends called to know if I was at home because they wanted to see me, but I said I couldn't. And finally, in the afternoon, I received a message saying "sorry, I have to work on a thing I'm supposed to give before christmas."

It really made me angry, he just made me wait for nothing, and found this excuse because he probably don't want to talk with me or I don't know what. Does he work during the night?? If he doesn't want to see me anymore he can tell me! I hate this situation. So I answered "So work well and see you next year" and get no answer. I'm sure he will write next week to say "sorry, so much to be done bla bla bla..."

It seems to me that he doesn't care about me at all, he cannot even understand that I have other things to do than to wait for him, so I won't care about him anymore, if he doesn't know what he wants, that's his problem, I already offered my help, I can't do more. Of course I'm a bit sad because it began very well with him, and he's exactly what I wanted, but well, it doesn't work, so I wont run after him.

So, I had a blond nordic guy with blue eyes, now I'm looking for a californian surfer, does anyone wants to visit Switzerland? :D

I finally decided to go home, and went to Yasmin's birthday. I was the only guy at a 10 persons table, and I hate to be the only guy with so many girls, they have their girls talks and their girls problems with "the one that said that, and it wasn't true, and blablabla..." and everything one says can end in a total drama because they interpret every word... pfff... Moreover, as being the only man, I had to invite Yasmin for a dance, and we were in a salsa bar with a dance floor. I'm a terrible dancer, and salsa is not really the easiest dance :S I warned her that it would be a shame, everybody insisted that I had to inviter her, so I did. We were the only ones to dance, and everybody was looking at us, especially at me in fact... and it was terrible! I was so ill at ease that after a moment she said I was really brave and said it was ok if I wanted to go and sit again. What wouldn't I do for a friend!