Never give up!

Before telling you how it went with my friend, I just have to tell you about my sister. She just called me a moment before because she's not well at all, she has trouble at work and it's taking her down. But! She also told me about her boyfriend, and... (it's sad for both of them and I shouldn't be that happy) she said he was a total jerk and didn't care about her problems at all, and was getting wasted every evenings at a friend of his so she doesn't want him to come over at her. I hope it's the beginning of the end! It not the first time that she say that and change her mind a few days after though. But the hope is still there!

So, back to my friend. She called around noon and said "I'll be there in 15 minutes". She came, and she offered me some chocolate candies. It didn't make any sense to me because it was like I was rewarded for something, or recovering of a long illness, but it was kind of her anyway, and chocolate is chocolate ;) So, we went to the kitchen, sat in front of each other, I made coffee, and said "so, how are you?" and she said "well, I won't lie to you, I did not sleep this night, I was thinking about what you told me and still can't believe it. But at least I stopped crying."  I said again that it was true, and she said "but how can I see it?!" and I said "what do you want me to do? it's not written on my forehead for fuck's sake!! I'm what I am and you can't do anything other than believe me!" I was a bit irritated, and she said she was sorry and all. So we were sitting without anything else to say, and I brought a random subject on the table to get the things less awkward, and to make her understand that it didn't change anything.

She left because I said I had to work, and just an hour ago texted me: "I'm sorry but I'm completely upside down, I can't imagine you with a boyfriend, but I'll have to manage with it. You will have to answer all my questions :D But I think you say you're gay only because you think that no girl finds you attractive, but there was this girl that tried to rape you, and I find you very handsome! It's so not you to be gay!" And I answered by e-mail, writting that first of all I did not intend nor wanted to answer all her questions, because I didn't want to justify everything I had done or said, and that it was not that at all, and explained all the stuff. I really hope that she get the message now, because this starts to put me on the edge. I know what I am and I don't want to prove it!! Maybe she was deeply in love with me and I just destroyed all her dreams yesterday, I don't know, but she will have to deal with it... I thought it would be the person that would take it in the easier way, I was totally wrong. It's weird when some people that you know so well react so much differently that what was expected.