I had some dinners with my family these last days, I thought that if I was going to eat at them I would have more time to work and I could relax for an hour or so. I went at my father, and I told him that I was studying all about divorce procedure and he began with "don't tell me about that, you know, your mother has been a b**** with me when we divorced and so has been the judge, and I had no money left, and bla bla bla..." so he kept talking about that for the whole dinner, he drank too much and at the end he was speaking like a stcratched old disc. It was not so relaxing at all. I managed to escape though, wich is an exploit when he's in this condition.
The day after I went to see my grand-mother. She's the only grandparent that is still alive. She's an amazing person. We went to a restaurant and had a very good meal, but the problem is that we drank wine and that we were both a bit "gay" at the end, (me being twice more ;) So when I arrived at home I went straight to bed. My grand-mother is really a grand old lady, she's from a very wealthy noble family in Sweden, she has a very good education and is very classy, but not snobbish at all. She looks like the queen of England. She is very nice with everybody, but she has no mercy for the people she dislikes. When she doesn't like somebody, she can destroy him just with a few words, she's really frightful when she's like that, she perfectly knows where to hit, psychologically speaking, she finds the weak spot and hit like a snake with a power you wouldn't expect of a nice old lady. She has these two faces, one of them I'm really affraid of, because I always thought that if I would do anything wrong she could destroy me like she destroyed other people. She's eighty years old, but still jumps everywhere as if she were fifty, it's amazing, she just came back from a trip in Croatia, and she's now heading for a big trip in Danemark and Sweden to visit some friends. She travels alone with her suitcase, and jumps from one place to another. I don't know what is her secret, I hope to be as healthy as she is when I'll be eighty!
Yesterday I was invited by my mother, and she had invited other friends of her. We were five. When I arrived, a bit earlier, she was so stressed that she was unbearable, she shouted at me like at a dog, and she was running in the kitchen and turning like a tornado, shouting at me and swearing like a docker. The worst thing was when I told her to calm down because it was no need to stress, and that her friend would understand if everything was not ready at the perfect time. It drove her completely mad, she turn completely red, started to yell like a Fury, you could almost see smoke going out of her ears. It was so absurd to be in such a state that I started to laugh, and it was even worse... I really don't understand my mother sometimes, when you have friends at home, it is supposed to be a moment of fun together, and of course to cook is a bit stressing, but to be in such a condition because of that is beyond understanding. I always laugh because even if it is a critical situation, I think about how it must look like for someone that sees it from an external point of view, and it looks like absolutely ridiculous!
So,working with other people doesn't work, and after all, eating to my parents is not really relaxing, and I do not save time either. What will be my next stupid idea? :)
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Hi!
What I find works for studying, if you can't study with a friend, is study in a large public place where there are also lots of other people reading/studying, like a library or a cafe. Sometimes you just have to beware of the noise, but some headphones and music takes care of that.
Grandparents and grand old ladies like that are rather amazing. When do people turn into them?
you're right, the library is the ideal place, but the main one is closed for a few weeks and there are only 40 places on the other one (considering that maybe 4000 students have exams in a few weeks and that many of them want to study at the library, and that I can't wake up too early in the morning, it doesn't let me any chances to get a seat! Well, I'll try a café then, thanks for the advice ;)
I'm sorry to hear that you have such a tough time with your parents...obviously not an environment where you can be yourself, simply....because nothing is simple when there is resentment, misunderstanding and lack of communication...your "problems" (like to be or not to be gay in society) can only be secondary...you have enough to deal with as it is...but if anything is a consolation, just remember that clearly, honesty and communication are key to a "peaceful" simpler life
kisses from Xico
It's not that dramatic, my parents have their life and I have mine, my father drink too much and my mother is crazy but there is nothing I can do about it, so I just deal with it, I'm used to it, and it's much better now that I don't live with them anymore. There is no resentment between us though, and normally we have great time together when we see each other.
Thanks for your comment!
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