I'm back

Hi!

I'm finally back, the french railways were on strike and it took me a long time to get home... I'm glad to live in a place were it almost never happens! I had a fantastic time. I began my trip on the côte d'azur, not far from St-Tropez. The water was so clear and turquoise, it was awesome! I arrived during the week and I was very desappointed when I went to the beach because it was only some dinosaurs taking sunbathes: old women with there breast drooping untill their knees, and men that were not much better, it was a terrible sight! But fortunately it was only because all the young people had their final exams, and as soon as the week was over, I found a lot of hotties lying on the sand, I felt much better, and I immediatly went to buy some sunglasses in order to stare at the guys a bit more discreetly :D

I was there with a girl that is one of my best friends. She's really nice and kind, but she's a bit depressed for the moment, and she was a bit boring because she was asking all the time if she was boring. I said no, but she was saying all the time "you say that only because you are kind with me, but I know I'm boring..." etc, and that was actually boring!! Well, I tried to make her laugh and push her a bit upward, and even managed it, at least partly. I stayed with her untill the end of the weekend, and left to Marseille on monday.

I paid a visit to Frank, the guy I told you about in a previous post, he's the son of the sister of my stepmother, and had a hard time when he visited us this winter because my father and my stepmother annoyed him by trying to "make him change" because he's gay. He came to pick me at the train station, and we had a great day, we walked around the old harbour, sat facing the see, and had random discussions. He changed his mind and now wants to become a famous movie director and to go to Los-Angeles to learn all about movie-making. I said him it was not that easy, but he's dreaming about it and he's not really connected with the reality... He just write some five minutes storylines and he's sure he'll become famous. I hope he's right but I really doubt about it... Apart from that he doesn't do anything. We had a meal, and after that we went on a park that is up a hill with a wonderful view on the see, and I took a nap on the grass. While I was half asleep I noticed he was taking picture of me with his mobile phone, he could have asked, I would at least have smiled on the pictures :)

When I woke up I asked him about his stay at my father during the winter, and asked if they werent too much annoying, without mentionning the gay thing. He said they were and we talked about my father and my stepmother. After that, it was time to have an apero, and we went to a café, it's really cool in France because there are nice cafés everywhere, with terraces under pine trees, on small plazas. He brought me back to the train around 8 pm. He said to me he had a wonderful day and that he had never done so many things on the same day before, I also appreciated his company, it was really a nice day.

Then I went to Montpellier to visit a girlfriend I had met in London two years ago. She's living there, and her mother has a car wich we could borrow, and she brought me to awesome places around there. It's a really beautiful region.

We also had fun in the city with friends of her, like going to the lasergame. When we went there, it was very hot, and running in a closed room made us sweat like hell. One of the girl brought her boyfriend, and he was so good-looking... When we get out of the room, he took his shirt off, and it was just the icing on the cake for this great day! Well, it was a nice stay. I also met a friend of the mother of the girl, and when I told him I was studying, he said he couldn't understand why I was losing my time and was not a model, because I was really handsome. That's a man of good taste ;)

Now holiday is over, and I'm working hard for the exams in a month. At the right moment I'll ask you to cross your fingers for me!

Heading south

As annonced in a previous post, I'm going to the south of France for a few days. I love to be by the sea, I'm so looking forward! And I also hope to see some fit guys on the beach :P I'm going at different places, namely St-Clair on the Azur coast, then see a friend in Marseille, and finally visit an other one in Montpellier. I hope everything will be allright with the trains, you never know with the French, it seems that they are always on strike at the wrong moment!

See you in ten days!

Stan

Stan is my best friend. We first met when we were doing our military service three years ago. He's the kind of guy everybody likes, he's very open, speaks to everyone, jokes a lot about everything, and he's also definitely handsome! A lot of people know him as a "party-animal" who knows everyone and is cool, but as we became closer and closer, I learnt to know him in a different way. He's really sensitive, he has some problems and take a lot of things a lot more seriously that one could think. He's often moody. After a short period we became really good friends and we deeply trust each other now. I think he tells me things he never tells, or told anyone else. We have had a very similar life, in our childhood, with our parents, we both were kidnapped by fake pirats that have a boat on the lake (and as we were only four or five years old we really were scared because we were thinking it was true ones)...

Last year he had some psychological issues, he went into depression, and tried to hide it to his other friends, he was having a lot of anxiety attacks and didn't know how to deal with it. I noticed it was something wrong (he sometimes called me during the week at 1 am...) and he told me about it and I tried to do my best to help him. He's better now and could stop taking drugs a few month ago. He's been having a girlfriend for some month, who is really nice and he's very happy with her.

He invited me to eat at his place a few weeks ago, while his girlfriend was in Brazil to visit her family. He told me he had some issues with his father, who recently told him he was gay. He said he had nobody to tell that, even his girlfriend, and that he really wanted to talk about it with me. He took that very bad, and was really disturbed. His two brothers have been knowing the situation for a while, but his father couln't tell him until recently and asked his two brothers not to tell him. He was really upset that everybody hid that from him. I told him that it was maybe because he had a special relation with his father and that he was maybe affraid he wouldn't approve it at all.

I asked him why he had a problem with the fact his father was gay, if he had issues with gay people in general or if it was only because it was his father. He answered "you know, I had a talk with my older brother, and he said that my father and his boyfriend have a really great relationship, that he could feel they love each other. I always thought being gay was something unhealthy, but I try to reconsider it." I told him that he had time to think about it, but that it would be much better not to cut the bridges with his father and talk with him, and that the most important thing was that he had to take into account that his father would always love him and that he also had the right to be happy.

He called me this morning, and we talked again about gay issues. He has a friend that told him he was gay and asked if he was ok with it. He told me that he was surprised, but that he was really ok with that, as long as his friend is happy, and that he had no problem with it and it wouldn't change his relationship with his friend. I was really happy to hear that, because now I think I will be able to tell him without being scared that he would be uncomfortable with it.

Busy week

It's good that this week is over! I had so many things to do. It began with the story with the girl I found on my bed. The day after was terrible, I had to attend a family dinner at my grandmother, and even on the evening I could'nt really walk on a straight line :S I was so tired because I hadn't slept the night before. When I arrived there I found fourteen members of my family, all laughing and speaking very loud in swedish, I had to concentrate so much to speak and to smile to everyone. I had a splitting headache, and all the noise, the little children running around and shouting, it was a torture...

When I came home around 1 am I noticed that I had received a message from another cousin, that lives on the other part of the country. He was coming the day after with a friend from California, and wanted to show him the surroundings and sleep at my home. I said it was ok (especially because I was hoping his friend would be a californian surfer :P ).

So they arrived the day after, on the evening. My cousin introduced me to his friend. He was not what I had dreamt of ;) he was a short hispanic without anything special, kind but extremely shy, to the point I could hardly understand him when he was speaking. I had prepared a good meal, and we had some beers on the terrace before going to the city center where some friends of mine were waiting for us. We had fun there, and then just went home after a few hours.

On friday I had to go to a big birthday party. It was the 80th birthday of the uncle of my mother, and he came from sweden and invited all the family in a big five stars palace-hotel on the lakeshore. I had to write a speech, because I'm the one in the family that always has his mouth open :). I didn't know what to say though, because I don't know him very well. So I invented a funny story with the pictures of him I had. I was affraid that nobody would find it funny, wich would have been a bit awkward, but finally, it went very well and everybody laughed a lot, and congratuleted me for my speech. It was really nice! We had an awesome meal. I just went mad about the people that made speeches, because we had the most attractive piece of meat I had ever seen, and we weren't able to eat it when it was warm because we had three speeches, and I had also a german wowen just beside me that couldn't stop speaking, and asking questions. It was a kind of psychological torture!

I met my two young cousins from Sweden, a guy who is 24 and his sister. The guy was so good looking, very tall, fit, blond hair and blue eyes, he looked really nice in a suit. It's a shame we couldn't meet a bit earlier and go to the swimming pool :P

During all this time, I still hadn't called the girl, she had sent me some messages, but I hadn't even answered because I had a lot of other things to think about and didn't know what to say. So I called her yesterday, and asked if she was allright, and she said she was, and I proposed her to go to see the football match on a place where there is a big screen. I thought we could speak of what happened. I went to take her at his appartement, and I was wondering what to do and to say. When I arrived, I just said "hi" and she just kissed me on the cheek. We went down to see the match, but there I met my sister, her boyfriend, my aunt, uncle and cousin, so it was not at all the best moment to talk to her... well, at the end I took her home and she took me in her arms and said she was very happy that I had been with her on that evening, and left. I didn't know what to say, things are unclear and it's definitely not a good thing.

Surprise

This morning, I woke-up with a mega hangover. It was really terrible, I managed to open my eyes though, and was surprised to see that I was all naked... and not alone! I thought "what the fuck did I do??" and started to think in order to remember how I ended in this situation.

Yesterday I invited the best friend of Yasmin, she's also turkish and she fancies me. We had some beer on the terrace, and chatted a lot. It was a football match, Sweden versus Greece, later on the evening, and as I'm half swedish and that she likes football, we watched the match. We continued to drink, more than reasonnably, and she started to tease me. I didn't answered because I didn't want her to think that I'm attracted. The match went over, I was quite happy because Sweden won, and she said "now, let's play a game: We take a bottle of Martini and one must say something like "I never slept with two people under the shower" and if it's a lie we must drink" So we played the game, I learned some crazy things about her, and we were both wasted in a short time. The only thing I remember is that we went to bed, I wanted to sleep, and she started to take my clothes off, and jumped on me.

I felt really strange because I didn't know what to do, and pretended to fall asleep. It didn't work because she was really horny and started to bite me and hit my face! I don't really know what happened next, all I know is that I was naked and she was also. I hope that nothing happened, because first of all I don't want to be a father for the moment (I couldn't find any condom around, so I'm a bit scared...) and secondly I know she fancies me and she wants more than just one night, and I don't know how to make her understand that I'm not into her. Now she will tell Yasmin what happened and if I dump her she will say to Yasmin that I'm a bastard. It's an awkward situation... I don't really know what to do for the moment, I don't even dare to call her because I have no idea what to say!

Dan

I just received a mail from a good friend of mine who is studying in Germany for the moment. He's been there for a few month and will come back in early september when his exams will be over. I met him for the first time at high school when I was fifteen. I didn't know anybody in the classroom and seated next to him. We immediatly got along with each other. It's a really nice guy, he has a strange brain but is really kind. He doesn't think like anybody else, when you talk with him you sometimes think "damn, he's completely crazy, or stupid" but eventually, if you try to understand him, you can take something out of what he says and it is not so stupid, you just have to "translate" his words and understand his way of thinking... He might well be one of these misunderstood genius, who knows :)

He's also well fit, he does a lot of basketball, although he's short, and has a really hot body. He lives every moment as if it was the last, and always talk to the people very directly. If he sees a hot girl, he talk to her and after asking what is her name just ask "how do you like it" or "do you want to sleep with me tonight" or anything else this kind. It doesn't work everytime but he never comes home alone. He has such a beautiful face and eyes, almost no one can say no!

Last summer, we were at my best friend's birthday, in the mountains, and we stayed outside during the whole night. We were about twelve people. Around 4 am, most of the people went to sleep, and I stayed alone with Dan. We were lying in deckchairs on the terrace, watching the stars (it's really awesome when you're in the mountains! you see so many more than when you're in the city) and talking about lots of different things, our future lifes, the infinity of the space, etc (he had so strange theories!). It was a silence for a moment, and suddendly, he asked "have you ever had sex with a guy?" I was a bit surprised, I had had some with a friend of mine when I was 13, but nothing really special, but I didn't want to tell him so I answered "no". He said "don't you want to try it? you should, it might be great you know". And I just said "no, really I'm not interested". I just didn't want to tell him anything at this moment, because I didn't know if I could trust him, and I didn't know either why he was asking.

I told that to my best friend the day after, and she said "well, you know, knowing Dan, he was maybe trying to convince you to try something with him, he already told me he was interested in new experiences". A few weeks later, I was eating with a some friends, one of them is gay and told us "you never know who slept with a friend of mine!!?" and he told us it was Dan. When I received his email today I thought that it would have been much better to say yes in the mountains! Well, he comes back in three month, I already told him to come over in september, I'm sure he wouldn't mind doing a second experience :P

Amazing encounter

I'm on holiday now, and I found a little job for a few days, I have to carry some people from one airport to another by plane, and also to make some panoramic flights for the good customers of a big firm. That's great as I am paid for the hours I fly. I told you that this week the weather was crap and that it wasn't going to change... I opened my shutters this morning, and what I saw was heavy rain, low grey clouds, the kind of weather that is perfect for a sunday morning, when you can go back to bed without feeling guilty. So I checked the forecast on the internet, and I called the man I'm working for and told him that it was impossible to take off at least until midday, and that I would call back later. Finally I went back to bed, and everything went like a rainy sunday morning :)

I called back at twelwe, it wasn't much better, but he had many customers that were waiting and told me that it would be really great if I could come, even for a single flight for he wanted to impress a customer in order to make him sign a very important contract. I checked the weather again and it seemed that I could at least fly untill there. So I went to the aiport, prepared the plane, and took off. The clouds where very low, it was raining, and I had to make some zig-zags in order to avoid the showers. I finally landed around 2 pm. The weather was going worse there, and it was impossible to take off again. I had to tell the business man to cancel the flights. I waited for any improvement, because I wanted to go home. Finally, at 4 pm it was a little slot in the clouds and I could take off and head toward home.

Ten minutes before arriving, I tried to contact the airport, but nobody answered, and when I came close to it I saw it was under a heavy fog, and that a thunderstorm was arriving. I can tell you that it is really impressive to see from the sky! I had to divert to another airport, and land there. I called the tower in my home town and they said that the aiport was closed due to the weather...

So I was stuck in an airport far from home, far from any town, and there was nobody around! I said "fuck! what a day! no flights, wich means no money, and now I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere!" I called some friends and nobody could come and take me with a car (it is about one hour from where I live by car). The only thing to do was to take an umbrella, and to walk under the rain for about one hour to catch a train. I was seated in the cockpit, thinking how boring it was, and suddenly, I saw a man that was pulling a plane out of a hangar. I went to see if I could help him. When I came around the plane, I saw that it was a young guy, he looked at me and said "Hi!" I answered the same, and he said "You're Charlie right?". I was really surprised, I wondered how he could know that! And he said "Don't you remember me?" I looked at his face, I'm normally remember all the faces, but his did not came to my mind immediatly, but after a few seconds I remembered. It was one of my best friends when I was a bit younger, the last time I saw him was twelve years ago!

It was really nice to see him after all this time, we had a long talk, and it was amazing to see he was a pilot too! He also was in the air force, just one year after me, at the same place, and did exactly the same things! I looked at his logbook and it was all the stranger that we had flown exactly at the same places, with the same planes, but him from this airport, and I from the one that is located in my town. It is as if we had lived during twelve years in parallel universes. It turned out that we had a lot of things in common.

He finally brought me home by car, because he lives just 20 minutes away, and I took his number so that we won't wait another twelwe years to see each other again. It was really amazing! What a luck! :D