Stan & others

Hehe, this is another really cool weekend! Friday evening, Stan came at my place for dinner. He brought a friend of his that had just been dumped by his girlfriend and was strunged out. I also invited Maria, so we were four. I prepared Stan's favourite meal, and he was really happy. I hadn't seen him for a long time, and I was so happy to have him home! He let his hair grow and it suits him very well. he's so damn sexy... ah... he's the perfect guy. Not only is he cute as hell, but also kind and funny, I totally fall for him. I was seated next to him, and he was telling me stories about a trip he had made, but I didn't understand anything, I was just looking in his brown bright eyes and I was lost in contemplation. I know that nothing will ever happen and that makes me a bit sad but that's life, the show must go on! They went home around 4 am, and I went to bed.

I waked up at 7am, because we had planned with another friend to make a trip around Switzerland in one day. It must be one of the only country in the world that you can cross in a few hours. We went to a big alpine lake near Luzern, took a boat for a three hours ride and ate on board. The weather was awful, and we even saw snow just 200m above us! all the field on the mountains were already white. We are told about climate warming, but here it doesn't really seem to be warmer! :) Then we visited the city of Luzern (one of the most touristic ones, it's like being in disneyland... a bit too swiss and perfect, artificial) and came back home, were I had to prepare for the gay event on the evening.

I put my best outfit, did my hair, and I was ready to go! Before going I went to Yasmin's, and drank a turkish coffee. She war reading in the coffee grounds, and she said that she couldn't read many things. I asked her if I would meet someone during the night (she didn't know that it was a gay night) and she said no, and then started to laugh and said "hey, yes, I see something, but it's a guy that takes you into his arms, so beware!" hehe, and I thought "perfect!". I went at Greg's that invited us for a pre-party before going. We were around 10 people in his kitchen, we had some beers, a bottle of champagne, and we prepared to go.

We went to the club, and had printed tickets, that Greg bought on internet. Everyone could go in, but Sarah had a problem because they said that her ticket was fake, and we had to talk for 20min to the staff untill they let us in, with Sarah. I was looking around, and most of the guys were between 25 to 30, and it's a bit old for me. I'm 22 and look a bit younger, and I'm attracted to guys that are the same age or younger, but not older. I was a bit disappointed, but then, in the crowd, I noticed a guy that was really cute. We were dancing (well, I was standing while the other were dancing, because I'm probably the worse dancers of all time, and always feel really uneasy with it) and it was some guys that were staring at me, but nothing interesting. We went to the bar with Sarah, and we decided to get drunk, because she was dumped by his boyfriend. As we were speaking, the cute guy came and said hi to Sarah, and they started to talk, because they know each other apparently. He didn't say anything to me, but he was looking at me, and I was looking at him, and we undersood each other :P he left because another friend of his came and took him by the arm. We went to see the other that were still dancing, and Greg and Alex were dancing like I had never seen, Alex is so funny when he dances :)

I was leaning against the wall, looking for someting interesting in the crowd, and I saw the cute guy again. He was coming nearer and nearer, and we were looking at each other, and I was really excited. I didn't know what to do, because the others were just beside me, dancing, and they don't know that I'm gay, and even worse was that I met some workmates of my father, and I was really ill at ease, because if they had seen anything they would have told to my father and I don't want that to happen. Well, I thought "fuck the others, I do what I want!" and he was just one meter of me, dancing with a lesbian girl, looking at me, waiting a move from me to dance with him. As I said I'm a bad dancer, and I was going to ask him to drink something upstairs and talk a bit, but I saw Sarah that was making big warning signs at me, and she came and said "I have to talk to you, come on, sorry guys!" and I was like what the fuck!? and she said "don't do anything with him, it's the ex boyfriend of the ex of Greg, and he's really crazy, but like really really bad..." Shit!! I know Sarah, and I knew I had better follow her advice. We left short afterwards.

I'm going to find consolation at the airport today. I'm going with Sarah and my sister, and we are looking at a vintage aircraft exhibition (and I will look for a steward :P)

See you